Miss the old of Indonesia

kali ini aku tidak menggunakan bahasa inggris untuk memenuhi postingan blogku. itu karena aku masih peduli dengan bahasa Indonesia.
indonesia sudah terlalu lama dalam keterpurukannya. Indonesia sudah tidak dikenal sebgai negara yang punya segudang prestasi. Indonesia sudah tidak memiliki kebanggan seprti yang dulu kita miliki. aku sangat prihatin melihat hal ini terjadi pada bangsaku sendiri. bangsa yang dulu sempat ingin aku bangggakan kepada dunia. kini hanya tinggal menunggu keajaiban untuk membuat kenginginanku itu menjadi nyata.
aku juga bingung apakah tak seorangpun yang mengingat jasa-jasa para pejuang yang merelakan seluruh hidupnya untuk membangun bangsa ini, untuk memperjuangkan negara ini dari masa penjajahan. sekarang kita hanya bisa menodai perjuangan mereka dengan keterpurukan bangsa kita ini. apakah tak ada lagi seseorang dengan jiwa pahlawan yang akan menyelamatkan negara kita ini? tak hanya memiliki jiwa pahlawan namun juga memiliki sikap pejuang, yang rela mengorbankan hidupnya untuk membangkitkan negara ini lagi. yang rela mengesampingkan kepentingan pribadinya demi menghidupkan negara ini lagi. apakah tak akan ada lagi Soekarno jaman sekarang? apakah tak akan ada lagi Moh.Hatta jaman sekarang? apakah tak akan ada lagi Kartini jaman sekarang? apakah tak akan ada lagi Ki Hajar Dewantara jaman sekarang? ataupun tak adakah pahlawan-pahlawan yang lain yang ada pada jaman sekarang? tak adakah penganti-penganti mereka?
tak harus menjadi presiden atau pejabat-pejabat lainnya untuk menjadi pahlawan. kita sebagai rakyatpun bisa menjadi pahlawan negara kita ini. atau masih inginkah kita berlama-lama dalam keterpurukan ini.
aku sangat kecewa dengan keadaan Indonesia yang sekarang, namun sesungguhnya didalam hatiku aku masih sangat percaya bahwa Indonesia yang dulu akan kembali. yah, suatu saat nanti...

Speak Now

Words can break someone into a million pieces, but they can also put them back together. I hope you use yours for good, because the only words you'll regret more than the ones left unsaid are the ones you use to intentionally hurt someone.

What you say might be too much for some people. Maybe it will come out all wrong and you'll stutter and you'll walk away embrassed, wincing as you play it all back in your head. But I think the words you stop yourself from saying are the ones that will haunt you the longest.

So say it to them. Or say it to yourself in the mirror. Say it in a letter you'll never send or in a book millions might read someday. I think you deserve to look back on your life without a chorus of resounding voices saying 'I could've, but it's too late now'.

There is a time for silence. There is a time waiting you turn. But if you know how you feel, and you so clearly know what you need to say, you'll know it.

I don't think you should wait. I think you should speak now. :))


'Speak now or forever hold your peace', the words said by preachers at the end of wedding ceremonies all over the world, right before the vows. It's a last chance for protest, a moment I've always been strangely fascinated by. So many fantasize about bursting into a church, saying what they'd kept inside for years like in the movies. In real life, it rarely happens. 

FEARLESS

To me, FEARLESS is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid.
To me, FEARLESS is having fears, FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them.
To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before. FEARLESS is walking into your freshman year of high school at fifteen. FEARLESS is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again... even though every time you've tried before, you've lost. It's FEARLESS to have faith that someday things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them. I think it's FEARLESS to fall for your best friend, even though he's in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing, I thing it's FEARLESS to stop believing them. It's FEARLESS to say "you're NOT sorry", and walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is FEARLESS. I think allowing youself to cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright.. That's FEARLESS too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. That's why I really love "FEARLESS" song. Because I think love is FEARLESS..... :))

i'm not ready but i must do...

hmmm... ini tentang UN yang sebentar lagi bakal aku rasain... sebenernya aku sangat gaak siaap untuk ini. banyak materi yang aku masih belum ngerti tapi udah aku harus jawab pertanyaannya. terus pas aku dah niat mau belajar ntar malem, pasti ada aja tugas dari guru paginya. jadinya kan bingung mau ngerjain tugas atau mau belajar. sebenernya sih menurutku tugas yang dikasih ma guru-guru pas kelas tiga ni gak ada yang penting! gak ada sangkut pautnya dengan persiapan UN. kan daripada dikasih tugas nda jelas kaya gitu mending kita belajar soal-soal UN dari sekarang. nah ini yang buat aku jadi gak siap. malah kayanya kalo diitung-itung tuh waktunya nda lama lagi. sebenernya sih aku bisa kalo aku mau, tapi aku rasa otakku dah mulai cape sama materi-materinya. terus kayanya otakku nih dah full banget. dah gak bisa diisiin lagi. padahal katanya otak kita punya kapasitas berapa ratus tb! nih, buktinya ndak!
ah au ah.. aku kayanya cuma bisa pasrah dan berusaha dan berharap tiba-tiba ada mukjizat yang membuat nilai-nilaiku jadi tinggi... wahahahhaha...

I'm Jessica

Hello! my name is jessica such as the title. Mmm.. o.k I can't imagine myself, but you can if you're know me. And i'm just ordinary girl. I can smile when i feel so glad. I can laugh when i feel so funny. I can angry when i feel so bad. I can cry when i feel so sad. And i can mean to you if you hurt me. Yeah, i think everyone also do that. Oh yeah, i almost forget to tell you 'bout my birthday. I was born on Samarinda(Indonesia) 2nd February 1996. But in my birth certificate my birthday is 12nd February 1996. So you can say "Happy birthday" to me on that day. Mmm.. you know this day(16/12/2010) is my dad's birthday. And it's the first time for me to say "Happy birthday Dad!", because i'm very shy to say like that.
I have two parents. My Mom's name is Misiyah and My Dad's name is Tjeng Yauw Tong(but he like if you call him just his nickname, Atong). And i have old sister. Her name is Anita. And she already has a husband. I have five dogs. But one of them has died a few days ago. I'm very so sad for her. Beacause she a good dog, and she are very cute. Not to like bark, and she very patient with her friends(my dogs other). I love her very much. And the most makes me sad is when she died i was not at home.. T.T . O.k i won't to sad again because remember that.
I like writing, reading(but the most of book that i've read is comic, heheh..), listen a music, watch a movie, playing game, and i like walk around the mall though i'm not to buy anything(yeah, actually it's very hard for me to not buy anything hehe..). I love BigBang, Robert Pattinson, Taylor Swift, Christian Bautista, Agnes Monica, Miley Cyrus, Beyonce, Lee Min Ho, and Lee Hong Ki. haha.. i like them very much. May be oneday if i can met with they i will be fainting at that time, ahha..
When i write this, I'm a student in Kesatuan JHS. And i'm a student year IX/9. Although before i'm not too like my school but now i'm very love my school. Because at there I met my best friends Amel and Vira. And at there too I met my teachers and my friends other. I hope i can always will be together with my best friends and my friends though we're not in same school again. And when i'm leaving Kesatuan JHS, i can always remember this school wherever i'm.
O.k may be just it for now.. i will change it if i found a new one. ^^